Acceptance

"How to accept without understanding greed? How to get an understanding of avarice? It is not a question of understanding or not. The problem is acceptance. Some religions and philosophical currents show acceptance as the solution to all human pains. However, abnegation and fate approval allows slaves in mind and corps. And it is impossible that despite their smiles, they are happy because freedom is a longing. It was understood that there was no reason to arrive at that dawn in the morning alone. On a Monday in October, acceptance versus denial of personal decisions was traced and thought of too many times to conclude are those who desire more than any reason, making them free. And she is free. Beautiful, sensual, and economically dependent on her bidders but free from any love. That's why sending me a text to put it all aside was easy. And I thought of a despite everything; in reality, it is a despite nothing. That's what acceptance is about.

Human is so used to being oppressed that any sign of freedom is considered dangerous, like having dreams in a world of repressed desires. The phrases are typical and short sentences to find a like or a read, not to understand and to perform the life, just something monetizable, an immediate satisfaction (and hopefully fast) because there is no more time, just accept, turn the page without reading it and continue towards the gratification of the immediate need. Actually, acceptance is denial. I remember when you said you only wanted your orgasms with me. Also, as you told the others that I, and only I, was yours. Years later, I accept that they were actually words of passion but not of thought. I get your hate but not your forgetfulness. I remember you. I see you naked, giving you pleasure while I watch you, woman: in the distance and close to me, some afternoons. Tonight in October, I remember that just I crying when you went because of your passion and love for me, finishing with your last orgasm with me (or with my memory).

There is optimism when the human story is observed. Despite the global acceptance that allows dangerous and irrational human greed,  there are a few rational ones who, with another type of passion, fight against abnegation. They fight against supposed comfort and fear and arrive to propose another life. In reality, they give more lifetime. It is not arrogance; it is calm. And I'm guilty of reaching calm after loving you. Because I understand the anguish and the necessity of going far away from me in time and distance. And I'm afraid to even think of you and be inspired by you. And for this reason, even though I don't burn my paintings, I hide them.

But many are cowards, and few dare to save everyone. Courage to make life superior by thinking and loving. How to define bravery in a world of arrogance and greed? Unpopularity can be a sign to recognize it. However, reason and persistence are better. Same if, in a world of selfishness, to be a dreamer is dangerous. And trying to share them is worse. And in the middle of danger, it is inconceivable to confuse acceptance with abnegation. I'm a coward. One day, I will dare, when my security returns, to beat me against your arrogance and selfishness. One night, you will recognize that you immortalized yourself for my love. You, an angry and beautiful bird. This afternoon, just a frozen tree that accepts the coming winter. As I have taken that you have abandoned me."