Transcendence

"Some humans want to transcend, and transcendence involves influence and permanence. Some of them already have power. Most do not, but they aspire to be remembered in time. It is incomprehensible for those who live to achieve pleasure, no matter what happens to others, with the consequences of their lives. Not even if there is an inheritance. In her version, I broke her heart. What bothers me the most is that you didn't lie to me - she said it with her broken voice while I kept silent. The versions are comfortable, even though it does not consider all its variables, context, or both. The arrangement is accepted as the true, and when the satisfying truth is above all, the best thing is to remain silent. She was happy with that version for more than a year because the certitude made her unhappy. And me? No matters. My happiness does not depend on versions, only on experiences. 

To transcend is necessary compromises. One of them is with the others and recognizing the decisions and the impact in the context. Observing the fragility of the settlements, the value of the actions is insufficient to have a visible consequence, an achievement in life. In the visual and monetizable civilization, the citizens are worried, and those who make the commitments whose interests are in time are usually misunderstood and feared. Then, those who make intangible but thinkable burdens deserve to be betrayed. He recognized his anxiety. He thought that she was worth fighting ten or twenty years ago (yes, twenty years), but now, it didn't really matter. In his restlessness, he enjoyed passing more than a hundred kilometers on the highway, drinking not one but three beers at night, and managing to go to bed without thinking about them. Alone, he remembered what he had done years before and was proud of having done it. He wasn't rich for it, but something told him that all those events were transcendental enough not to be forgotten later. And that was his wealth. And that made him happy with his third Thursday night beer.

Despite the betrayal of others, the critical value is loyalty itself. Incredibly, humans manage to continue without thinking about their actions at any time. And they have made it admirable. But that admiration is temporary, enough to guarantee his wealth in life, but not that transcendence. In the human world, no one is remembered for its monetization but for its influence and permanence. Thursday night, a beer and he had been writing in his notebook for a week, adding hieroglyphics to the world in which only among the notebooks could something interesting be found for others. The first ones were those who sought to understand what this past happened. And the last ones are those who sought words to describe the future responses.

To be or to have, that is the cruel question. One that does not need a universal answer. Why does it? Humans seek to give an answer even if there are no questions, even incorrect statements. The argument is a simple noise that feeds the dull and uninteresting nature of that being or having. However, the right questions encourage being and not having. But the economy of civilization, to guarantee that having, needs people not to think about being transcendent. Transcendence allows neither accumulation nor expenditure. Faithfully, it causes fears to be recognized and overcome. Then, the cruel question becomes a forbidden question. They met again, and for some reason, she was the one who decided to throw herself at him. Their lips met, then, without realizing it, she realized that she was searching for his sex like never before. Against everything, she thought she had learned. That she was. Sometime later, she understood, but without taking offense, that she had been manipulated by his experience so that she would free herself. That's why she loved him, and even more to desire him intensely, to miss him. Before him and the history of that August, she possessed and had been kept. Now she was free.

It is hard to think about but necessary if transcendence is essential to get away from understanding the current world. Life and time are compatible; life is more than the accumulation of resources and greed. The abstraction shows life inside an interval of time. Still, the same conception provides the elements to make that life transcend in all measurable time. However, transcendence would allow that fearful expansion of humanity. Life could have a price and not a value in the universe, as now on Earth. He felt a little bad, but he got over it as he walked through the streets of the hot and polluted city. It was August, and the very Earth that had survived thanks to the pandemic, suffered more from humans after it. Thursday and their intimate and minor issues scared him more than the destruction of the world caused by their peers. Without a doubt, it was the problem of selfishness, and it didn't matter that he couldn't breathe, but that he couldn't love her. Well, he still had many internal demons."