"The two were nude and in silence looking at the ceiling after made sex. The traces of the previous hour were all: fluids, red skin, hair on the bed, but not the voices in moans and sometimes I love you. For she was interesting but after the years to be lovers, she remember the words in a call about the relationship between them: -And you are not afraid that I fall in love with you?. It is possible to reduce a lot of feelings to biological variables if there are the extreme necessity to have an explanation. But, Why a definition, an explanation in an eagerness to find words? Frustration and ambition will meet a day and the correct in the social model begins to be relative. Then, other questions appear to ignore the conscience and to emancipate convenience.
Desire. It is simple. The words of love or explanations about psycho-sociological reasons are stupid. The ceiling is white. The mind not, and there are not any compromise or blame, just he thought about his tattoos. Not in his wife, not in the pleasure words mixed with I love you and in the hard sexual phrases in some moments. Sometimes there are a simple synchronisation but just for very few people, the rhythm are compatible for a longtime, with the impression that it is harmonic forever. However, harmonic should be bored. And other class of sharing is possible but it is not easy to recognize, to accept and to proceed.
It is the year 2019, April and the explanation about love is still hidden behind prayers and religious relics. How it is possible to be with ignorance of the other? Transforming the appearance in a real argument to build another personal freedom. A freedom to take her and that she could take it, but the last time finish in a confesional session with a priest. Then, the last time was years, same if they are (almost) friends, he has his lovers, excuses and convenience (with his wife) and she has his prayers and projects and prejudices (with her husband). (Almost) friends. In other silences, people demands if is possible to discover the real feelings. Joy or sadness, it is for this that it is preferable to listen in hate or in routine. A thing is conviction and other convenience. And in convenience, it is better that the public is with the deep feeling that they are in desire (and love) each other.
Bother. She wants only to make love without passion. Just to procreate, but not to receive all my desire and to let go frustrations and yearnings. Yes - he said - I want to love her with my mind, my body heart, but in my absolute desire there are fifteen years ago, I follow her convictions and now, I'm in a convenient world. Each of us on its own side of the bed. And a simple kiss every morning before to work, before each passionate encounter with my lovers in other life. My real life. Bother. When the people follow the status quo and in an absolut hypocrisy, destroying the magical part of the love discours and life: his own life and that of others who dare to dream. Of course, a different thing is a dream and another a plan. It is not a question of two option as sleep and dream. The different ways can be more of two: it is very different appreciate, fall in love and take of..., in the same way that fuck, make love and copulate.
However, I think that the love will be win. One afternoon in a Sunday of April with the wind running through your skin while you sleep after making love after his journey over the sea, over the real suspires for every love song in the world. My conviction is that I should love you and you could be love me with your body, your mind and your heart. Alone is better than in absolut convenience. Taking slow the time to not to lie. Twice, I await the other opportunities to be complet, with you in conviction."
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